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"Maybe I'll get smarter at some point"

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Hmm. I'm still not sure where this is going again, but it doesn't really feel good. Six weeks ago I wrote that I wasn't feeling really stable and now I'm at that point again. It feels a bit like the bill for all sorts of things. I feel weighed down, my chest is often tight, I'm thin-skinned.

The thigh injury has developed into something that urgently needs to be cured for longer. Both the muscle and the tendons are constantly irritated. I'm going on vacation on Saturday, which is generally a good thing, but I'm slightly panicking about driving there.

Work is still there too, so I can't really switch off from it. I quit a lot of sweets the last four weeks, so I think I’ve got a lack of calorie income. Then there's a leisure project here and another there. I feel overwhelmed and overloaded and it's good that I'm realizing it.

What I'm trying to do now is reduce my workload. No running - I went cycling last week - it's good for my thigh, but my body and mind don't really want to do it, so I'm not doing it. Work lasts only until Wednesday - that's good. Beyond that, eat as healthily as possible, sleep and take it easy. Don't get worked up about anything. I hope it works out.

It's amazing that I keep missing the signals again and again. As a rule, everything always goes on somehow - the world keeps spinning - and I think the trigger and emergency brake this time was ultimately my thigh injury. I had to slow down, especially when it came to running. My body had time to take a deep breath and then showed me what was actually going on.

As I mentioned last week, I should keep a record of my everyday stress as well as my sporting stress. If you put the two together, it added up again. Maybe I'll get smarter at some point.

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